deathfish

Let's face it. I hated the previous Journal entry to the point of looking for excuses all around to make a new one. Well, I found a few decent ones. :thumb77760578: ie, http://deathfish.deviantart.com/art/I-See-Better-77760578 (thumb works not) I want to thank Irena-N-Photography (https://www.deviantart.com/irena-n-photography) for suggesting and kkart (https://www.deviantart.com/kkart) for featuring "I See Better" for a Daily Deviation. A while back. I just hope you all poor bastards that made the mistake and started watching me because of this photo don't expect the same kind of steady art to follow. :D I think I might be anything but steady. *uses the moment and looks deep into himself.* at least I can't drown

One year I have not edited this journal entry of mine. Seriously. Alright, almost one year. I am lazy, but I never thought I am THAT lazy. Although I am not sure if laziness has anything to do with it.. Ya know, dA is cool. At least the idea of it. It changed abit too much for my tastes. But it doesn't change a fact that I have met some people here so cool that I never want to un-meet them. We are all here for different reasons, right? Want to hear what mine is? Purely, to do something with my photos. And why here? I have been on plenty of sites in my time. Because I like the community here the most. At least the one I am in contact with.. A

to describe my mood: ANNOYED! I don't really care about alot of things. I've been working on that for a long time now. life is just too painful if that isn't done. but something is seriously bugging me. being appreciated. or smth. look, I know what I do and share here on dA is not bad. the taste varies right, but that doesn't change that fact. so why should it be so damn hard to be appreciated? or wanted. (art, not me:P) I noticed that I generally don't really care what happens here. but comments, friends, someone telling me what I made really made them smile.. that gives me elan. uhm, flexibility? fuel.. I can do more, I want to do more, an